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Oct. 13th, 2008

  • 11:16 PM


Um hi. I know i said i was going to try and keep my lj up to date but i've just had some really, really insane shit happen to me in the last two months (has it really been that long? Fuuuuuuuck.)
I should probably start from the beginning;

1. A few weeks ago my friend sent me an extremely alarming text; something along the lines of:

"I'm so sorry Charlie but i've had enough; i can't take it anymore and i want out. Thank you for always being there for me, remember that i always loved you."
 
I'm not going to insult your intelligence and tell you what i thought that implied, so i rushed over to her house (which is a good half an hour away) and was almost out of my head with panic. I actually called 999 (but luckily they didn't answer). It turned out she didn't do anything; don't get me wrong, she was going to, but she couldn't do it because she said she didn't have the guts when it came down to it (cue infinite relief). We both cried out eyes out, until i could get her to tell me what was wrong. Essentially it all boiled down to a boy; a stupid, selfish, prick of a boy.

Yes i know what you're thinking; it was her own fault, but hear me out. My friend has never gone out with anybody because she lacks self-confidence. She's really pretty, a size 8, (Which is what? A size 4 in America?) and has a sparkling personality once she opens up, but she does lack confidence. It ended up that she got drunk and then high, and she then slept with this guy, as in lost virginity and everything. This she said was fine, except the next day he acted like nothing happened and then later on wanted her to come over to his to 'take advantage of an empty house'. This is therefore the classic story of girl feeling extremely used and vulnerable, and that text was how it all ended. Slept over with her, tried to provide comfort and advice, and all seems well so far. Made her promise to talk to me about whatever she wanted; bottling emotions is never a good way to go. So that was an ending which went well.

2. I managed to gain and lose a boyfriend in a fortnight. Well, sort of. It started out that we were just internet friends, chatting away of an evening about random stuff. Then i found out that he lived really close to me so we met up, and all went well; he was quite good looking and really sweet, but it turned out he just wasn't my type. Unfortunately, the break up didn't go down that well and so he's still texting me continuously as if nothing's happened. Problem is he's a nice guy but enough is enough, soon i'm going to have to say something aren't i?

Other stuff has happened too, i think i'm just too tired to write it. I apologise for not writing on here for a while, but i hope you can understand that i've just been too preoccupied with other stuff.

Writer's Block: On Your Tombstone

  • Jul. 30th, 2008 at 10:51 PM

What do you want written on your gravestone and why?

Submitted By [info]sharky123


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 "As Arnold rightly said: I'll Be Back"

-Just cus it's a fricken awesome thing to have!

Just Because A Friend Told Me To...

  • Jul. 30th, 2008 at 10:49 PM

Ask me a question about each of the following:

1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. Livejournal

No matter how rude, sexual or confidential.
Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.

Ever so slightly hypocritical...

  • Jul. 28th, 2008 at 9:13 PM

Basically i'm moaning about the fact that all people seem to want to do these days is talk about themselves. Take my neighbour for instance, i was running late for work and she was mowing the front garden. I said good morning and the usual 'isn't the weather nice' and then she goes off on one, all about her day and stuff that's happened to her. I'm all for a nice chat, but she even comes round frequently to update us on what's going on with her and her family, she never even asks about me or my mom, in fact the other day she asked mom; "Does Charlotte still see her father." Honestly, we've lived next to her for nearly 6 years and in that time she has been informed that my dad died a few years ago, and yet she asks that. No i don't see my father anymore because he's dead! Meh, shows how much some people listen eh?

I said i was being slightly hypocritical because to be honest, what am i doing on here? I'm talking about myself, nothing but in fact. Maybe i shouldn't complain about her doing the same then >_<


Anyways, on a lighter note, i finally got the skullcandy headphones i've been pining for, life is good therefore =D

xx

Poor Charlie Sad...

  • Jun. 29th, 2008 at 9:02 PM

Yeah, really stupid reasoning behind it as well. I think i just needed a good cry hehe. I suppose i'd better explain anyway. As surprising as this may be (which these days it is kind of surprising), i've never actually played 'Final Fantasy VII'. I know it's possibly one of the most famous games around, rivalling even 'Sonic' in it's cult popularity as a series, but i've never played it. However, i saw a PSP game called 'Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core' and decided to give it a shot. It's actually a really awesome game, (bought it on Thursday and finished it this evening!) but the game  has a really sad ending. I know it's really laughable but i cried my eyes out at it (yes it was just that sad) but the main character was really likeable and... i should stop here so i don't ruin the game for those who want to possibly play it and haven't yet.

So yes, i managed to upset myself over that. Who says big girls don't cry? On a lighter note, if that didn't make you raise an eyebrow already that is, i found the perfect university for me (i think). I really, really want to go and study Ancient History at Nottingham university. It just looks like a fantastic place to be, so i'm really excited (*prays* please let me pass my exams!) 

So i'd like to ask any readers (does anybody read this?), if you live in Nottingham or go to the university there (in which case you would live there anyway i suppose), would you get in contact with me and tell me what you think of the place. I mean i went to the open day on Friday, but didn't have time to actually talk properly to the students about general life at the uni.

So yes, thanks for listening, still feeling a little glum so sympathy would be muchly appreciated.

Hope you're all well,

Charlie
xxx

Lots to talk about...

  • May. 30th, 2008 at 8:05 PM

Mainly good things, so don't worry. Firstly, i passed my driving test on Wednesday! I can now legally drive anywhere on my own, and i'm even going to go on the motorway come Sunday. Life is very good.

Yesterday i drove to The Fort at Birmingham, all the way from Rubery. It was kinda nerve wracking (not the easiest first journey alone i can tell you that!) Today i drove to Solihull (another long-ish journey) to go to my friend's house where we hunkered down  and did some long hours of revision for history. The French Revolution in so unbelievably jam-packed full of events which are vitally important if you want a good grade at A level. It's bordering ridiculous, but anyway, i veer away from the point. I drove to Solihull, stupid TomTom (yes i have a TomTom) took me all the way around by making me go through the town centre. It was really busy and quite scary actually, but all was well. Got onto her drive and managed to reverse back out onto the main road without killing anyone!

Ok, so now, not so good. I am so very jealous of my best friend (not in a malicious way though, i'm just jealous). This sounds really petty, but she's just recently got herself a boyfriend. I'm not actually jealous because of him, he's really not my type of fella, but i'd just like to have someone like that. It's my own fault though, i've had plenty of chances but i'm just far too shy to act on them. Usually i'm not shy at all, but i tend to freeze up if i meet somebody i like, and i guess it's just a little off-putting (why wouldn't it be?) 

I should meet more people i think. If i can get comfortable enough with someone, then i wouldn't act so oddly. So yes, anybody around the vicinity of Birmingham, i'd like to meet you, even if we just become good friends. Bear in mind that i'm seventeen though, so if you do want to meet, then i'd prefer to take somebody along with me just in case. Sorry for being paranoid, but today's society is just awful in places. You're of course quite welcome to bring somebody also. The invitation is open to anybody around my age (between 15 and 22 then), gender doesn't matter, i'm not gay or bisexual even, but i love making new friends, so if you'd like to meet somebody new also, then leave me a comment.

Anyway, i hope that everyone has a nice weekend, got work tomorrow, so i guess i'll check back later.

xx

Bored, bored, bored...

  • May. 21st, 2008 at 11:16 AM

Ok, so i'm currently sitting in the resources room at school and am bored out of my wits >_< I can't believe i opted to come into school rather than stay at home where there's a nice comfy sofa and about 4hrs worth of recorded programs for me to catch up on. 

School SUCKS! I suppose i could go home but i have a revision session at 2pm, so i might as well just stay. If it's of no help to me though then i will certainly be going home.

Somebody entertain me PLEASE!!! A couple of sympathetic comments would be wonderful right about now.

So yeah, extremely bored, should be revising, but oh well...